I miss you hurts.

 I haven't taken a shower in two days.One because something happened to our gas line and no hot water and two because im gross and lazy.I recieved a brand new computer for my birthday,that was pretty exciting.My mom tried making some deal with me about when i move out,that when i move out im not allowed to bring it unless i have a permanante place to stay.ha.something about it not getting ruined.

i've been in a pretty weird mood lately.Where i think everything is wrong with everyone.I think im insane sometimes.Josh hates school at La sierra, i mean it might be all of the fags he hangs out with(besides meghon) that is doing that for him.I wish i was there.I wish everything was as good as last year.I was so excited for this year to be going to school with him.Fuck parents.Seriously.Meghons dad did the same thing.Lets move during summer.He even told me that my parents were weird for not waiting a year for me to graduate or at least turn 18.seriously,how can people be so inconsiderate sometimes.Or maybe its me being the inconsiderate one and only thinking about myself and how miserable i am being in this position.I love the feeling i get when i go to see josh and meghon,but then i hate the feeling i get when i leave and have to say goodbye.I really really cant wait for all of this to be over with.12 more months to go.

I'm giving up on sluts there just to much for me to be around.I really cant take the girls that come near me at school.I just wish everyone would leave me the fuck alone and let me read in a nice quiet spot.I am over sluts seriously. I complain to much.