SHAKE IT OFF!

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-03-21T13:02:00

2005-03-21T21:03:14Z

I stayed home sick from school today.I made a new Livejournal ive been trying to get around to doing so for a while now.

add it if you want

layinglow

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-03-20T20:06:00

2005-03-21T04:07:16Z

i most certainly just got reassured that i dont need anyone in my life rather than meghon and josh.And i fucking love it like that.

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-03-20T14:13:00

2005-03-20T22:19:11Z

I basicly Had the best two weeks ever.They went by so fast.But it's okay,Won't be to long until it's permanent happiness.

Self Explained.

2005-03-15T22:09:24Z

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-03-07T16:52:00

2005-03-08T01:14:30Z

ksdjfkasjdfkjasdfjlsadjfljasdfljsadfjsdkla im excited for tomorrow!!
minus the getting up early part,but the rest of the day will be fantastic.

:)

James hart has gross teeth.

2005-03-06T04:22:31Z

I Hate Sluts and/or any girl preferbally the ones that attend la sierra that want josh.

Fuck you seriously.

im a jealous girlfriend.But im allowed to be right? :(

9th grade status.

2005-03-05T03:50:02Z

Im glad i keep everything.

why in the world?

2005-03-04T02:03:32Z

Okay,So i found out something really really strange today. The Librarian at my shitty school that contains 300 kids has made a myspace and looks for kids who attends the school and puts there pictures on the myspace she has made and messages them and tells them she knows what they've done and so on.I find this a little creepy.I'm glad im just a new girl and no librarian can stalk me on myspace but heres the link to the creep myster. http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=9170322&Mytoken=20050303180345

I wish my hair would grow faster.

2005-03-02T00:41:08Z

I passed my drivers ed.I didn't cheat i swear.Time for the permit maybe?
I haven't been to Riverside in over a month & i'm still alive.
I miss Meghon & Josh.I went to the dentist today.I almost cried i was so scared.I've had the same dentist my whole life and its always been my mom who was the assistant.Im not good with strangers sticking there hands in my mouth.yich, no thanks.I'm out of books to read.It's a bothering thing.Boredom is over taking me.I want Friday to come faster.Spring break.ah.finally.Tuesday i finally get to go to Riverside 8-20.wayy longer than normal.so it gives me something to be excited and happy about & plus Josh has a show on the 11.I havent seen him play in forever + possible disneyland trip in our hands? who knows what could happen! i just want this freaking week to hurry on up!

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-02-27T20:27:00

2005-02-28T04:29:47Z

I want to go back to la sierra just to make fun of people.It's lacking.And just those moments use to make my day with Meghon.Josh sent me so many myspace's today that made me laugh so hard i was crying.seriously.im going back.

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-02-24T19:25:00

2005-02-25T03:25:30Z

I'm getting so fat.

p.s. Mxc marathons own your face!

I slept the whole night last night,that was a first in a very long time.

2005-02-24T03:21:35Z

So,i thought i came to the conclusion on what to do on my 18th birthday for sure.It is certainly difficult when your mother tells you shes going to kill herself if i choose what i have already chosen and feel i am still going to go by.Sad things keep coming to me.But,i really dont care.Yes,its true.I am 17 and all i care about the most are the closest people to me.Meghon and Josh. It's come to the point to where i dont remember when my mom was normal though.My dad tells me she's been mentally sick her whole life.Im not to sure if i agree with this.And if its true,how am i handling this,this well and have not gone completly insane myself.well i guess i can answer that right off the bat, Two familys basicly.The Paschke's and The Everett's.I dont think id even be alive and/or the same person i am without them.So,Firstly this is what ive decided i am going back to la sierra second semester next year.I considered just graduating early with the class of 2005 and leaving on my 18 birthday.But I just really really want to graduate with meghon and josh i dont mean to be lame about it.But thats the one thing ive actually been looking forward to my whole highschool career.but the whole problem is with my mom.She tells me im going to be sorry and that shes going to kill herself if i go back to la sierra.Thats when i considered graduating early and just leaving on my 18th birthday.Then She informs me that if i move in with josh's family how big of a whore im going to be and that shell kill herself in that scenario also.Well,fuck.Both of my options closed.So either way im doing what i want.I'm going to finish highschool at la sierra high and live with josh and his loving family and be happy for once.I believe shes using the killing herself as an excuse to make me feel horrible.Its definatley not going to work.Im so over her and all her tricks.whoa,im a rammbler.

I'm drinking out of a pink straw right now.

2005-02-21T01:07:39Z

Nickelodeon shows have gone to horrible.what happened to snick!!Fuck Zoey 101.

hahahaha Joshua is all jacked up. nice writing fool.

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-02-19T18:50:00

2005-02-20T02:51:00Z

My night is set.hahahaha.

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-02-18T13:47:00

2005-02-18T21:48:01Z

With all this stuff going down at la sierra today and me being worried for meghons life.My mom asked if id rather still be going there then here.I said thats for damn sure,Ive got a better chance getting shot here by some crack whore then by a gangster.

I like weekends, they mean sleep.hopefully.
I never sleep.

P.S. im totally doing drivers ed online.how about them apples?

Josh Gets Me through Everything Even If Its Through Text Messages.

2005-02-18T03:24:46Z

I bet you 945039845038450834 dollars that your mom has never called you a whore over thirty times in 5 minutes.I bet your mom has never tried jumping out of a car door going 90 mph.I bet your mom has never told you that she was going to kill herself if you move in with your boyfriend when your 18.I bet your mom has never Told you that you only think about yourself even if you show up for an educational two hour class for her health,which was a six hour car ride.I mean From going to that meeting today, i realized i saved her life last april.Im the one who got her dressed when she couldnt think because she was loosing so much blood im the one who took control and called my oldest brother to take me and her to the emergency room.

and yet im the whore who doesnt care about her?
think again.

Umbrella gang!

2005-02-13T22:59:01Z

hahaha old but funny.

I keep on talking trash, but i never say anything.

2005-02-10T02:28:28Z

Two more days until Riverside! I am definatly excited.This week was filled with gifts.My bright eyes shirt came in the mail finally!good stuff.And so did all of my old navy stuff.It's fun coming home to packages on you're bed after you had a bad day.Today i realized that you can use aim through aim.com.ha that ruled i was at school and i could im people.It made me happy.i never knew there was a thing called aim express! haha.I cut my finger today with a box cutter because it was broken and i to hold the razor. And i needed to finish my dumb project.First thing that popped in my head was YES, I GET TO USE MY HELLO KITTY BANDAIDS FINALLY! yeah but in the end i'm in a good mood and i want Josh to come home from Anchos already haha.

smiles are contagious.

2005-02-05T00:30:15Z

I'm excited to see Josh and Meghon even though i have a week left,and im excited for the locust!I'm sick of being so negative.

I miss you hurts.

2005-02-03T01:32:29Z

I haven't taken a shower in two days.One because something happened to our gas line and no hot water and two because im gross and lazy.I recieved a brand new computer for my birthday,that was pretty exciting.My mom tried making some deal with me about when i move out,that when i move out im not allowed to bring it unless i have a permanante place to stay.ha.something about it not getting ruined.

i've been in a pretty weird mood lately.Where i think everything is wrong with everyone.I think im insane sometimes.Josh hates school at La sierra, i mean it might be all of the fags he hangs out with(besides meghon) that is doing that for him.I wish i was there.I wish everything was as good as last year.I was so excited for this year to be going to school with him.Fuck parents.Seriously.Meghons dad did the same thing.Lets move during summer.He even told me that my parents were weird for not waiting a year for me to graduate or at least turn 18.seriously,how can people be so inconsiderate sometimes.Or maybe its me being the inconsiderate one and only thinking about myself and how miserable i am being in this position.I love the feeling i get when i go to see josh and meghon,but then i hate the feeling i get when i leave and have to say goodbye.I really really cant wait for all of this to be over with.12 more months to go.

I'm giving up on sluts there just to much for me to be around.I really cant take the girls that come near me at school.I just wish everyone would leave me the fuck alone and let me read in a nice quiet spot.I am over sluts seriously. I complain to much.

Im 17.

2005-02-01T20:40:41Z

Well i celebrated my birthday this weekend with my best friends and when i came home i had over 90 pictures on my camera and i was to lazy to resize them so this may freeze your computer im just warning you now. but they are fun!

i definatly saw Raven and Kimberly locke at california adventure land hahaha it ruled.

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-01-31T20:22:00

2005-02-01T04:25:10Z

tomorrows my birthday.

im not excited.

my_brutal_enemy @ 2005-01-23T09:58:00

2005-01-23T18:01:24Z

My best friends have lives and I dont.

I dont feel good.

Mexico can fucking wait and all of those french films about trains.

2005-01-21T02:35:52Z

Attack of the psycho bipolar mom PART THREE.
ohhhh no! its a trilogy.

ah not that way!

2005-01-20T20:28:39Z

I got a dress code violation.hahaha for wearing a band shirt of all things plus a sweater over it.I got stopped by the principal because he said he saw my midrif.the only other time i ever have talked to this man was a few months ago when i was a new student to this school,he was rude to be then and now. I told him that im not a slut and its not quiet possible to see me showing my stomach and im entirely way to fat to do that even during summer i wear sweaters.He replied to me yelling go to the office now.
So i did so.And the secretary who deals with that shit thought it was ridiculous because the school shirt she gave me was the same size as the shirt i was wearing.She apologized and said she couldnt do anything because she could get fired for not doing what the administration says. whatever.gives me an extra reason to hate this fucking place ten times more.

hahaha god i cant believe i just wrote all that.Shows how much of a life i dont have.

ha.